here goes round 2! (insert sexy ho with 'ROUND 2' sign) It has been a year...a loooonnng year, much has happened in my life! I have learned a great deal about myself and my weaknesses! I always knew I was an emotional eater but who knew how bad that could get?! (and boy did it get BAD!)
I have had enough with being fat, yes, call me negative, self abusive - lets call it like it is. REALITY! I am FAT and I do not like it. I do not feel healthy and I do not feel like I am being a productive member of this family. I want to live a long and healthy life, teach my kids that while it may be warm and cozy to sit inside and watch movies together it is A LOT more positive for us to go outside and go sledding, build a snowman or go snowshoeing! I love my kids more than my own life and it is time for me to push myself closer to the front of that line.
I am trying to be very aware of not only WHAT I put in my mouth but how much and how fast! I am trying to consciously put the fork down between bites and keeping track of my servings and calories by getting back on track with Sparkpeople.com! If anyone reading this is interested please friend me on there and we can support each other in this lifestyle change! I think I have talked Tim into doing it with me but he seems a little reluctant. I hope I can encourage him to take a few minutes a day to log his food on the website and to get a little more exercise in. I feel like doing it together will raise our chances of success greatly!
I know that this is (had to delete a 'just' there. BE POSITIVE) my first official day back on the road to health and happiness but I am very hopeful. I have such a hard time waking up in the morning, no energy and little motivation. I get short of breath doing the littlest things. Putting on shoes, walking up the stairs....I am 31, this needs to stop NOW or I will not live to see my children make their own happy futures! I will try hard to love myself enough to LIVE!
POSITIVITY
LOVE
RESPECT
ENERGY
HEALTH
MOTIVATION
these are all words that I need to work towards!
You can do it April! And Sparkpeople is a great site - just remember to eat enough calories - that always seems to get people :)
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